6dp3dt
Crampy. Constipated. Sore, but not pregnant sore boobs. Vivid dreams. Luteal-phase clear skin. Internets, I don’t feel pregnant, I feel premenstrual.
Which bums me the hell out.
And yes, before you jump in to reassure/remind me about the complete inability of an IVFing woman to exhibit anything like rational thought, let alone calmly perform a semi-complicated bit of self-analysis, let me assure you that I have been second-guessing myself – re-reading old blog posts, even, to remind myself of what day I previously managed to get a positive test last time (10dp3dt) and how all the tests before then were negative. And even about how firmly convinced I was at the time that nothing had worked because I just didn’t feel that different. And then I had (temporary) good news that changed everything.
So yeah, I guess I’m to the point in this waiting game where I’m sick of waiting. My brain is trying desperately to protect my heart, and reminding me that this procedure is a crap shoot, no more, no less. I’m to the point where I’m trying to pretend that I’m not waiting for Friday for anything at all. Trying to pretend that it’s a shame I won’t know it’s a negative by Thursday, so I could have some of the most excellent wine my father-in-law is likely to serve at Thanksgiving. I want it to be next Tuesday, and I want to be surprised with good news (permanent good news this time, please) but what I really want is for the 2ww to be done. Finished with, one way or another.
Or, barring that, I’d like to have the freedom to curl up in bed and go to sleep for three or four days, until it’s time for me to test.
Surely that’s not too much to ask.
I know you are in the throes of the horrible 2ww. As much as I hate to say these words, please try to relax. Enjoy your holiday. You can’t trust symptoms or lack of symptoms.
((Hugs))
I vote that one glass of most excellent wine on Thanksgiving is good for you! Seriously.
It’s so early… there’s just no way of knowing yet. Hang in there!
Ugh the two week wait STINKS!!!! It is so hard not to bounce between hope and despair and back again. distract yourself as much as you can and hang in there. the time will pass and then you’ll have some real information to go on.
Mo
For my last FET cycle, I had no symptoms whatsoever… not even the sore boobs that I usually have. I was absolutely convinced that it was a bust indeed and just like you… I couldn’t believe that I had to wait x days to know that it was a negative. I wanted to know so I can move on. But lo and behold, I got a BFP. I still don’t have any symptoms. So all I have to say is don’t beat yourself up for the lack of symptoms. Happy a happy thanksgiving and enjoy the long weekend!
OMG! The constipation!! Gotta be the pio? I am hating it!!!!
Feeling pretty darn normal myself. Swinging wildly between hope and despair. Fun times!
How was the shopping trip this past weekend?
The only symptom I had for my IVF BFP was being very crampy days before I would in a cycle where I had my period. I had serious cramps starting about 3dp5dt where I would normally start those cramps about 12DPO.
Have a great Thanksgiving!
I just read some of your blog, you and I are just days apart, I am 8dp2dt. However, you sound a lot more sane than I do!
Your embryo’s sounded really great too, I have a good feeling that you will be celebrating a BFP soon! Best of luck to you and your hubby!
Hang in there my friend, still thinking sticky thoughts.