Comments on: Officially not-pregnant anymore.

By: Lisa

Lisa — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 11:46:29 +0000

I am having my delicious giant cup of coffee and I am thinking of you this morning. I have been thinking a lot about stats lately. If they are true – three in a row puts one in a group of that happening 1% or less of the time. Okay – my first joy in a long time – my dogs are playing like mad dingos – my 13 year old 75 pounder looks like a puppy.

HUGS today S.

By: Melanie

Melanie — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 03:39:04 +0000

Hey Spog – just checking in. Glad to hear today was alright. This whole thing is shitty and I don’t know what to say. Other than I’m thinking about you.

By: Lisa

Lisa — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 01:45:22 +0000

((HUGS)) I so fucking wish this was different

By: Emily

Emily — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 01:32:39 +0000

I have been thinking about you all week & apologize for being a crap commenter during this difficult time…
Sending you hugs and healing thoughts.

By: T

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 21:52:17 +0000

I have been reading your blog for a couple weeks and relieved for you, your D&C went well. Hope your recovery is ok.

Good luck on your upcoming DE cycle and finding a donor that fits..

Again I am fumbling through my reply because it always seems I can not find the right words for the hand life deals so many people…

By: sarah

sarah — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 19:00:54 +0000

I think everyone should be totally out for a d&c.
I want a versed drip in my bedroom for those nigths when it is hard to go to sleep.
It feels good to be on the same page, doesn’t it.
Take care.

By: Nicole

Nicole — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 18:47:49 +0000

Susan! I am so glad to hear today went as well as you had hoped and I’ve been thinking about you all week.

And so glad the boy is on the DE train with you! I can’t wait to follow your journey–you deserve that sprog more than anyone!

Enjoy your down time if you can and I hope the weather makes you smile this weekend…I know I am!

By: Susan

Susan — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 18:30:47 +0000

Actually, I’m a writer, I’m married to a writer, most of my friends are writers, & that’s a fantastic analogy.

I still have all the crappy books I wrote as a teenager taking up disk space in my computer. They’re a part of me, even though they’re crap. In case of a fire, I’d take the computer – in large part because of the years of work those crappy stories represent. Yes, it was ultimately wasted work, or at least not publishable work, but it’s mine, and I worked really hard on those stories.

I think that might be exactly the same way I feel about those poor embryos. They’re crap embryos, but they’re mine and we went through hell to produce them. In a very real sense, they’re ME. And I don’t want to throw them away as if they meant nothing/mean nothing.

I have a feeling I’ll be paying storage fees for a few more years til I can work through this one a bit more rationally.

By: Cat

Cat — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 18:25:01 +0000

I’m glad your D&C went well – still sorry you had to have one. No, your paragraph about your frozen embryos doesn’t make much sense, but I completely agree with what you said and feel the same way. In two fresh cycles we’ve only produced one frozen embryo and it only produced a miscarriage (and D&C), but it’s still a part of you. It’s still something you tried very hard to create and spent a lot of time to create. Not that this is the same, but it’s kind of like seeing a book you wrote thrown into a fire. Even if is was a sucky book, it was still *your* book. Yeah, that wasn’t a good analogy, but I still agree with what you said.