Yowza!
So, Ms. DonorFantastica is disease-free & ready to cycle and my drugs are coming tomorrow in the mail. Life feels like a pretty gentle place right now, like the Universe is planning on cutting me a break for a change. My insurance came through yet again (hurrah for GHI!) and will cover my portion of the DE cycle, though it will not – obviously – do a thing about her portion. Which means that as painful as the co-pay for my drugs is going to be, it’s nothing like the agony I’m going to be feeling in a week or two when I go to the drugstore to buy hers. Yowza!
And you know what? I’m delighted to spend the money. Delighted that everything’s looking good, that she’s not balking at doing this through the holidays, that I feel so good about this donor, this process. Terrified, but good. I think we’ve got a good chance of this working, which is a nice feeling. Haven’t felt this way since, well, since IVF #1 way back when. Every cycle since then has been because we knew we should “use up” my insurance allotment, or we should “use up” our frozen embryos. So being able to start fresh, with someone else’s young eggs, makes me feel hopeful. Like we might actually end up with a child at the end of this.
I think I’m in as good a place as I could be, while still holding down a job, for doing this in the next couple of months. I have lots of time off sprinkled through the end of the year (When we had to set our vacation schedule back in the spring, I was due to deliver in December, so wanted to cut myself a break during my 3rd trimester. Hah. I hate it when irony just keeps finding ways to bite me in the ass, don’t you?) And I’m determined to take several days off work post-transfer in order to avoid flooding my little sproglings with adrenaline and other nasty hormones. Paycheck be damned, I’m putting my feet up. So that’s all good, even though I didn’t get the Librarian-by-the-Sea position.
Which is fine, since I plan to be pregnant in a month, and delivering in August, sometime. At which point I’ll be quitting. So it really doesn’t matter where in the system I work til then.
(Listen to this raving optimist. Where did she come from and what did she do with my brain?!?)
I blame it on the fish oil. And the giddiness of having contiguous days-off. And listening to Syd Straw singing about squirrels on iTunes. That’s enough to make anyone happy.
Loving the optimism. I look forward to hearing how seamlessly things are working out.
Glad you are feeling so optimistic! Maybe I need to get me some of that fish oil!
Hey Sprog–
Glad all is working out.. I don’t know about your clinic or what but most will put the ED meds on the EDIP names so you can claim or use benefits.
I love hearing everything is set to go… and that you are feeling optimistic. A brand new start:).
Wonderful news! I am s far behind on catching up, I had no idea you were so close!!!
I’m so excited for you! I really hope this is your ticket to motherhood. Good for you for your optimistic outlook. We IF’s spend too much time in Negative Land and it’s a breath of fresh air to find optimism once in a while!
Wow! I want some of what you’re having! You sound so good, Susan!!! (I don’t think it’s the fish oil, tho. I’ve been taking 2400 mg daily and I am definitely not giddy).
Really happy for you. And hopeful. Did I mention hopeful?
Fondly,
Mo
You sound awesome, and deserve every ounce of this optimism and postitive energy. I view it as a postitive and indicator of good things to come! Yay!
I love hearing you this happy and contented!
Glad to hear the optimism in your post. I’ll try to absorb some of that for myself. I’m terrified that my DE cycle won’t work – I’m such a pessimist. After all, life always bites me in the ass. Enjoy your time off!
Great news – and your happiness makes me happy!
Have you ever had an HSG to evaluate your other tube? I had two ectopics on one side. Never had the other tube removed and should have. The left,damaged tube caused % IVF cycles, 2 being donor to fail. It is called Hydrosalpinx. Here is info. below. This is what happened to me.
Not only does a hydrosalpinx cause infertility, it can also reduce the success rate of fertility treatment, even those treatments that bypass the fallopian tubes. The blocked tube can communicate with the uterus, and the fluid in the tube can be expressed out of the tube into the uterus. This fluid is probably somewhat toxic to early embryo development, and certainly provides an unfavorable environment. The large volume of the fluid flow back into the uterus and can produce enough flow that embryos find it difficult to attach,or can cause misscarriage since they have no ability to move against the tide. Fertility drugs may cause the fluid to build up in the tube, since the tubes are responsive to the ovarian hormones produced during fertility drug therapy.
Go optimism .. sounds like a good place to be, hopefully it will only get better from here.
Yowza indeed! Nothing wrong with optimism in my book.
yay for good things! finally!