We’ll be doing CVS anyway and would be, even if this were a singleton. But I am lucky (?!) enough to live in NYC, where the top doc for CVS & SR lives and works. The risk is much less – especially with him – than it is for a twin pregnancy to go wrong, given my history & medical conditions. is there any way to know if I’m going to come in on the good or bad side of the risk? Not until we take that risk. And, um, yeah, of course increased risk is something I’m worried about, but honestly, given how much I’m spotting with this pregnancy, I’m seriously looking at it as a sign that my bod is not entirely thrilled to be carrying two, and I’m only at 8 weeks.

But I’m putting my faith – what faith I have – in numbers and in the fact that I am blessed to be able to be treated by the best doctor in the business. And I’m happy to discuss this. It’s a sucky sucky thing, and I think too many women allow themselves to be put into positions that are not the healthiest for them or for their children, because of the taboo of talking about this frankly. It’s a shitty place to be, and it’s a shitty thing to have to wrap your head around, especially if you have strongly differing views. I have been touched and astonished by the general level of respect and sensitivity that readers have displayed.

First of all I wanted to say that I am impressed by your frankness on this blog. I have to say, your decision to reduce your twin pregnancy has been something I’ve thought a lot about. I know it is none of my business and I promise you I am not judging you in anyway, but it has made me think a lot and has brought up feelings I would not expect. I do appreciate your honesty and the nuances of your decision. So thank you for sharing.

One thing I’ve been wondering a lot about is if your afraid that reduction will lead to a miscarriage of your other embryo. I know that I was very worried about having to have an amnio because of the increased of miscarriage, and though I don’t know anything about reduction, I’m assuming their has to be a slightly increased risk of miscarriage of the other embryo. I know you’ve had a bumpy ride filled with anxiety due to your spotting, so I wondered if increased risk of miscarriage was something your worried about. I don’t mean to bring up something upsetting or be insensitive, I am genuinely curious.

Thank you again for your honesty on this topic. I hope I’m not overstepping my bounds in asking this, and I totally understand if I have and you don’t want to answer my question.

Wish you were able to avoid the hell hole of work forever and work somewhere that your talents were appreciated and your life force somehow supported or at least not sucked dry. you should get hazard pay.

Found out where I’ll be the end of the month so I’ll send you an email.
For now? Sending big love S,
Kate

Spotting sounds really scary, but having “placed” my first i-v pills in there last night I could totally see how that could get irritating.

It does sound like some kind of Halloween adventure when you write it that way.

Hope your weekend is better.

So so sorry about the spotting- I’m confident its nothing (you’re thinking- why isn’t it wonderful you’re so confident good for YOU!) but I really do hope its just the cervix getting irritated. if you’re taking lovenox that just makes things worse up there, everytime I have a pelvic exam or sometimes even a transvag u/s I have some spotting so considering you’re using suppositories it makes sense you’re getting more irritation. Still- I hope it goes away very very soon.