9w2d – Annoying with a Capital ‘A’
So, I’m still feeling pregnant. Still bleeding like I’m NOT pregnant, but I’m doing my best to ignore that. Napped yesterday afternoon until the blech went away, and was happy to do so. I love days off. And then, the boy did a double take when I got undressed last night -
“Your boobs are huge!”
“I know.”
“No, I mean they’ve grown since Friday.”
“I know.”
Fortunately, the giant rack of breast-flesh somewhat camouflages the poochy tummy directly south. I’m inclined to call it bloating, rather than anything more interesting, but it’s cuter than my usual bloaty-shape. (This is called “making friends with my fat,” and I’ll be doing rather a lot of it over the next few months, I suspect.)
And my first OB appointment is tomorrow, which I am looking forward to & dreading in equal measure. Looking forward to meeting this guy, looking forward to a half-day at work (because I am that much of a slacker) and looking forward to (please, dear lord!) having a relieve-my-fears-for-another-37-hours live-baby ultrasound to cling to. Also hoping to get some good answers to important questions like,
- “Assuming this spotting ever stops, at what point could my husband and I look forward to resuming normal marital relations?”
- “You’re a solo, Jewish practitioner and I’m due to deliver on Yom Kippur. Do you see a problem with this?”
- “What kind of exercise can I start doing ASAP so that I do not turn into a slug of vast proportions by September, but also do not frighten Sprog into leaving my womb prematurely?”
- “Do I really have to step on that scale? In front of other people? Really?”
- “Would you please make a note in my chart saying that I’m neurotic so that it doesn’t come as a surprise to anyone when I say or do something really stupid? Thank you.”
- “I’m ordering a rental doppler this week. Please see the aforementioned note in my chart for explanation as to why.”
- “Is it true you’re Brooke Shields’ OB? Any comment as to why you didn’t notice her PP depression?”
- “How many first trimester ultrasounds are too many? I’m thinking one a day – or maybe every other day – would be about right. Wait – what do you mean you’re not about to give me an ultrasound every day? Jerk.”
As you can see, I’ve put a lot of thought into how I’ll come off to this man who’s about to know my girl goods even more intimately than my husband does. I think I’ve pretty much settled on “insane” and “Annoying-with-a-capital-’A'” I’ll let you know how it goes.
Hope this magical doc is a rock star for YOU–
and that you get reassurance right away so you can get on with the other stuff, neurotic (ha) or otherwise.
I told this clinic to put a note on my chart, sort of a beware: engineer note. She laughed but I think she got it after our first few conversations.
thinking of you!
here’s to 37 more hours (soon) of giddy. (Everything is relative).
xooxox
Kate
Hopefully he’ll give you as many ultrasounds as you want! Or, at the very least, have you come in for one whenever you call with a concern. Oh wait, that might be the same thing.
The sprog in your ticker is developing nicely! Last time I looked it was till mostly bloblike, but now there are limbs. Hooray!
HA! My DH seriously considered getting an u/s machine. Ok, not REALLY seriously, but he actually asked the tech about if they sent them to auction when they upgraded. This was 10 years ago when we were pg the first time. So maybe instead of a doppler you should look into renting an u/s machine! Good luck with that.
Glad you have a day off from the Realm of Pain. Looking forward to hearing all about New Doc tomorrow. Enjoy lazing about today!~
I think you are also making friends with ‘the crazy’ and not trying to act like it is going any where. That is KEY to surviving!
Love it – cannot wait to hear the responses, especially as to the pp depression question!
I was hell bent on exercising during the pregnancy – and I have not done one thing – first tri – too sick, second tri – too many things to do and working full time – now – too huge. But seriously – it is exercise just walking around my house and hoisting myself into different positions in bed – I seriously think my arms are stronger due to the latter…
Fucquing bleeding – I am so sorry that you have to deal with that.
Sorry about the bleeding. I hope you like the doc and that he understands “the crazy” and goes with the flow. Because you have to live with the fear ALL THE TIME and he only has to deal with you occasionally. I hope the sprogs are waving at you at your U/S in 36 hours! I await the giddy pics of strong sprogs!
Eager to hear some good news about your OB appointment. I think it pretty much goes without saying that women, most of us anyhow, are annoying patients who ask a lot of questions and make a lot of demands they don’t really want to meet. Add to that the fact that you are pregnant with twins, and your history of loss…you shouldn’t have to tell them. They should expect it from day one! And they should entertain all of your “crazy” requests. What’s an ultrasound every few days?
Best of luck tomorrow. Really, if you get an U/S tomorrow, and then have a first trimester scan in a couple more weeks, you’ll be into easy doppler reassurance territory after that.
You’re not crazy or neurotic, just someone who’s got a lot of history.
Waiting with baited breath. Thinking of you both.
Eb
I agree with Kate… I survived by an ultrasound at 9 weeks, the first trimester scan at 12 weeks and by 13 weeks, the doppler and I were friends. You can do this. I hope your appt goes swimmingly tomorrow!!
I played phone tag with my doc for three days just to hear directly from him that everything is going “very well” and the ultrasound “looked great.” Because apparently hearing it from another doc in the practice, his nurse and from him on a voice mail is not enough. I am pretty sure they have made their own note in the chart about me being neurotic.
I am pretty sure all the cool kids are doing it.
I hope the OB is as awesome as advertised and sympathetic to the crazy.
I’d comment on the blasted spotting, but that’s not conducive to ignoring it.
My doc gave me once weekly ultrasounds until 13 weeks, so its possible! I had to laugh reading your list and yes its SO important to ask about exercise. I wast old not to, and I didn’t fight it much but I really am of slug tendencies now. We went to a store today and walked around for an n hour and I felt like I did a cross country run.
Good luck tomorrow, I’m sure all will be great and I look forward to your update!
I am so far behind in reading… Sorry! Just wanted to wish you luck tomorrow. Saying a prayer…
Swimming, walking and pre-natal yoga and pilates (both post 12 weeks) were the exercise I took. I think it really depends on how much you do now – this is not a good time to start!. I expect your OB is used to crazy post infertility patients – the ones here certainly are although they try their best to persuade you that now you are allowed to be normal.
I am that woman, too. I have weekly appts, sometimes 2 a week. And, everytime I am worried about something different- GD, weight gain, my cervix, an infection, kicks…. Not to mention the # of times I’ve called my OBs cell at odd hours for reassurance. We’re normal. Hopefully, once you get further than you’ve ever been, you’ll feel a bit better. I’m about a week away from my loss point, so I’m ANNOYING as Hell.