Should Never Have Relaxed
See? I knew I shouldn’t have said anything about feeling calmer. Zen be damned, I’m back to panic stations.
SuperStarOB called me at work to tell me that my follow-up bloodwork came back & that I definitely have a hyperactive thyroid.
So of course I went to Dr. Google and scared the shit out of myself. Hey – I’m now at risk of heart failure during a “thyroid storm” and my baby is at risk of stillbirth, miscarriage, or massive retardation! I probably won’t be able to breastfeed! My child has a possibility of developing hyperthyroidism too, immediately after birth! Just because he’s lucky enough to be gestating in my malfunctioning body! Woohoo!
Just once. Once. Could I NOT be on the wrong side of scary-ass statistics? Please? I have a regularly scheduled appointment with the OB tomorrow, and hope to pump him for more information, as well as a referral (Any NYC readers have a great endocrinologist they’d like to recommend? I got dizzy looking at the sheer number of them on my insurance’s web site.)
Have I mentioned how tired I am of not being allowed to relax? I just start to, and then something else comes up. Something shitty. Something scary.
Tired of this. Want it to be September already. Want to sleep til then.
Goddamnitall.
Ugh, ugh, ugh. I HATE that. When I scheduled my ultrasound today I thought I was just finagling the extra peace of mind that comes with seeing my little one on the screen. I never thought it would end in freaking bed rest. I hate being knocked down just when you are starting to build some confidence in the pregnancy. I hope that you are able to get a great endocrinologist referral and some feedback to set your mind at ease tomorrow. And at least a few waves and high fives on screen from the sprog to cheer you up.
I’m really sorry about that. They do have things to help with this don’t they? ((HUGS)) I will be praying that none of those things will happen, only perfection.
I’m so sorry to hear that, thank goodness you have an appointment tomorrow to get some answers. I can’t believe this wasn’t discovered before? hopefully all will be well- I am thinking of you. Please keep us posted.
Oh hon, hang in there! Hopefully they will get you some meds to calm things down in there. Breathe, breathe, this is going to be ok. The reason they are catching this stuff is because they are checking (which is excellent!). So trust SSOB.
I’m sure spending time around the Princess would make any self-respecting thyroid hyper.
I’m so sorry that you had to receive another knock down. I have had item after item knock the wind from my sails and I know it’s all very scary. I hope that you will receive some more information that can help you cope with the worry. Just giving you a really big hug.
F, F, F – I am so sorry – I hope your OB will have some good news and a good referral…one of my IRL friends had thyroid issues, it was managed well and her baby is fine (super cute and well developed)
Ugh!! I’m so sorry!! That is not news you want to be hearing. I’m sorry all this crappy stuff keeps happening to you. Crappy things definitely need to leave you the hell alone for a while!! I hope you find a great endocrinologist and get this all sorted out. So sorry!
hang in there. I hope you get some answers and guidance tomorrow. *hugs*
A friend of mine was diagnosed with hyperthyroid between IVF baby #1 and IVF baby #2 and dr thinks that it might have been partially to blame. Anyway, both her babies are perfect and she had easy pregnancies, at age 40 for this last one. I’m hoping OB can give you some better stats than Dr Google since he sees actual pregnant people.
Hey Susan — sorry that things are never simple. I do actually have an endocrinologist in NYC that I like, so feel free to email me (slphillipsnyc at gmail) and I can share the info.
So very glad your appointment is this morning and so sorry you have to deal with ONE.MORE.THING.
yeah, like you needed something else?
Ok universe, Lay off sprogblogger please, she deserves a completely uneventful here-on-out on this pregnancy, since soon she’ll be chasing a toddler and we need to make sure her energy and life force are intact.
So sorry you have to deal with this.
So glad you do not have to wait to talk with someone.
MANY folks have thyroid issues and I simply need to believe it does not have to be traumatic (fuck dr google).
Sending Love and big squishy hugs.
and prayers for simplicity please, the good kind, the don’t worry kind.
xoxo
kate
Ugh! I cannot believe you have this crapola to deal with! I’m so sorry, but I hope you get some reassuring answers at your appointment today.
Susan~I’m sorry that yet another concern has creeped up. You didn’t mention what your thyroid levels are (how low from normal was your TSH? Did they test TSH uptake? Free T4?) but as someone who has suffered with thyroid disease for nearly 20 years (hyper, Graves disease, now hypo), I can say that being a bit hyper is preferable, during pregnancy, to being hypo. That said, seeing an endo is your best first course of action, but your OB can give you basic information.
Will look forward to your update.
(((HHHUUUGGGSSSS)))
You don’t get a break, do you? I’m so sorry. How will you be treated? Is it possible this was a problem from the RPL angle? I’m thinking of you, wishing you and Sprog the best.
Ugh, so sorry about the thyroid. I hope your OB has some helpful advice today. Thinking of you.
You’ll probably just go on a synthetic hormone and they will get your levels in control. I’m hypothyroid, so I just take a pill everyday and see an endocrinologist every few months.
Pregnancy tends to screw with your thyroid levels anyway. I think it’s kind of typical, that’s why they check it.
But yea, I totally get that “one more thing to add to the list”, disappointment. Thyroid, blood thinners, age, … my list is long.
Hopefully it’s an easy fix though.
Oh hon, I’m sorry. The good news is that, if they can get it under control, the issues can be mitigated. I know it isnt fair that there is one more thing. I’m sorry.
That runs in DH’s family. My MIL has it and her three kids are all just fine. SIL has it, too, and her three daughters are perfect as well.
Dr. Google is a very pessimistic, glass-is-half-empty-because-the-contents-are-being-sucked-into-a-black-hole kind of doctor. Best to steer clear.
From what I recall in med school, the HCG of pregnancy shares some structural similarities with the thyroid stimulating hormone molecule and subclinical hyperthyrpidism is common.
You will be fine.
http://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=19366 is some google back up that my memory is not too shaky on this.
It would be different if you had known graves before becoming pregnant to having what you seem to have (reading between the lines here) as just a common finding in the first trimester.
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Just sitting here waiting to BE pregnant, or to be able to try and get pregnant, I totally feel how badly you want the wait to be over. Because it is hard to stay joyous in the wait when you’re just hoping it will all work out. Like, let’s get to the end part where everything was perfect, and skip the whole worrying bit and all the potential scares along the way. Hopefully time will speed up a little as you progress. In the meantime, I’m keepin’ my fingers crossed that you will pass the finish line with the prize in hand!