Deep breath.  Better today.  Not hugely better, but better enough that I don’t feel like my brains are going to leak out my ears every time I use the bathroom.  I’m trying to readjust my “normal” setting.  For me, normal is bleeding right now, just like normal is wearing panty-liners every single day of my [...]

Yawn.  I’m feeling sort of sulky that I have to go in to work today.  Because, really, shouldn’t I be given the whole week off since we went & got yesterday off?  Why doesn’t the work-world work like that?  It really should. Lots of bleeding after my exam yesterday, so I think I’m just going [...]

Wow.  Said our goodbyes, promised to come and show off Sprog in the Fall.  Hugged.  Said goodbye. Because, yes, everything’s looking fine, hearts beating, embryos measuring on target for 8w4d. Normally, graduation day would be a day of tossing pills and syringes every which way, but given my history, my doc is keeping me on [...]

Folks, I think I’m on to something.  Powdered Gatorade is something I cannot, apparently buy out here, but nasty CountryTime Lemonade, mixed at half-strength gives the same not-too-sweet effect.  I drank over 100 oz of fluids yesterday. And there was no spotting. I’m feeling hopeful that maybe – just maybe – I can keep this [...]

So, I’ve been thinking about this goddamned spotting.  In no particular order, here’s all the salient points to reassure myself that I’ve come up with: My mom bled through her first trimester with both me & my little brother. I’ve had blood in my kleenex every time I blow my prednisone-stuffy nose from the day [...]

Seriously, look at my little widget-gizmo.  There are actual legs there.  And I have it on good (Google) authority that ears are forming.  In another couple of weeks he won’t even be my spice-lovin’ big-head alien baby anymore.  *sniff* They grow up so fast. Seriously, I know many of you find the widget-gizmo disgusting and [...]

Yesterday was a nice relaxing day at home, and I only wish I had another one before I had to go back to work.  At least I don’t have any programs to put on today, because honestly?  I just don’t have the energy. The fatigue is definitely something I wasn’t counting on.  I mean, I’m [...]

I’ve been wanting to update my header for a while, but none of the “your baby is this big” ideas really thrilled me, and my creativity seems to have entered a slumpy period.  I’m cookin’ a baby, damnit.  I can’t be bothered with brain work.   Besides, ‘Poppy Seed’ is just a cooler mental image [...]

Sprog, meet the World.  World, Sprog. I’m still rather floating around over the moon somewhere.  Figure I should enjoy my bliss while it lasts since I’m due for more “I know my baby’s going to die” thoughts in another 2.5 days.   But for the mo?  Everything baby-related is perfect.   Actually had a fairly [...]

Ok, so I’m at 8 weeks today.  If Sprog is still with us, there’s every chance he’s going to stay with us.  I’m starting to feel like this might work.  Ultrasound (and graduation!) tomorrow, and I’m so excited.  Terrified, but excited. Yesterday wasn’t as bad as I’d feared.  I imagine I was just so busy [...]