So, I had my appointment this morning with – Dr. Bigshot!  Some of you may remember that he’s the one who failed to find the fetus still hanging around in my bleeding uterus a month after the miscarriage.  You might also remember he’s the fellow who cavalierly diagnosed “the worst case of adenomyosis” he’d ever [...]

Had the HSN today and everything looked good.  (Though why is it that doctors seem to think that small-talk while they’re shoving various implements into one’s girl-goods is either appropriate or welcome?  I mean, I’m a librarian, I’m happy to talk books to anyone.  But honestly, my capacity for book-talking is somewhat limited when I’m distracted, [...]

Argh. Have I mentioned before how no matter how much I like my doctor, his receptionists aren’t the best or the brightest?  Received a phone message yesterday that my appointment today was getting pushed back because of all the transfers/retrievals, so could we reschedule?  Ok, that’s understandable; even I wouldn’t claim that my consultation appointment [...]

And today I underwent the procedure I was trying to avoid two months ago when I forewent the D&C for a natural, astonishingly scary & painful miscarriage at home.   Today’s hysteroscopy/D&C was certainly unnatural, but really not scary or painful at all, thanks to the joys of a general anesthetic, which I’m pretty sure [...]

So I did it. I made the appointment for the D & C. Oh, that makes it sound so simple! Hah. Over the course of three days, over the accumulated course of at least three hours of actually being on the phone, I dealt with one idiotic receptionist at my clinic after another, none of [...]

After calling my incompetent RE’s office four times, I finally got someone to connect me to something other than voice mail. The nurse said that another doctor wanted to do an ultrasound tomorrow, since my numbers have risen, but certainly not doubled every 48 hours. They’ve sort of doubled every 72 hours, but they’re not [...]

and no word. I called my doctor and the office is closed. Which is why she was going to call me. Before they closed. Before 1pm. Goddamn. And this, after the somewhat disheartening news this morning. Fuck. I can’t even go down a bottle of wine. Or seventeen shots of espresso. Or demand wild sex [...]

So my RE wanted to see me this morning – or at least my RE’s partner, whom I had never before met. Things were running crazy at the office, doctor arrived late, people had been waiting for procedures for way too long, etc. But I wasn’t worried – as I told fiance – because everything’s [...]

…after an uneventful, but deliciously fun trip. No spotting, no cramping, no nothing. In fact, as soon as I got home, I took a HPT, just to make sure I was still, you know, pregnant. Yep. And it was a rather baby-oriented trip, as well. Baby sea-lions, to be exact. Nursing “babies” almost as big [...]

Actually, I’m not entirely sure I can adequately describe how upsetting today has been. Which I realize, as I write this, is a shitty way to begin a post on an infertility/ivf blog. So, before I go any further, let me assure you that I’m still pregnant. No miscarriage, no signs of impending miscarriage. Except [...]