…which is, of course, bad news. It is not, however, the worst news.  Doc feels confidant that this is the remains of a chemical pregnancy, NOT an ectopic in process.  He said that if my numbers next week start rising up into the 30s, 4os, 50s, then we might have to reevaluate, but that this [...]

Doing a bit better this morning.  Aided by the fact that since I’m working late tonight, I got to sleep in as late as I wanted (which was pretty late), PLUS the dog has figured out how to use her dog-door in the middle of the night, so I can safely ignore her when she [...]

My beta-test came back, and in the immortal words of the tech, “well, you’re not not-pregnant.” Yeah, that’s right, folks.  I have an HCG-level of 7.9.  No, this is not cause to celebrate.  This likely means I’m dealing with an ectopic pregnancy.  I guess molar pregnancies have abnormally high levels & ectopic have abnormally low?  [...]

so I suppose that means this is the official last day of IVF #2. Not a great day. I don’t plan on answering my phone when they call with the news, so I made sure to get my prednisone withdrawal instructions before I left. At least I won’t have to inject myself with anything tonight. [...]

…what to write about.   No countdowns until or since – I am in IVF limbo.   And, like everything else associated with this process, IVF limbo sucks.   Realize that I am a goal-driven person, never happier than when I have tons of projects all in-process.  Building a house while working full time and [...]

So, I had my appointment this morning with – Dr. Bigshot!  Some of you may remember that he’s the one who failed to find the fetus still hanging around in my bleeding uterus a month after the miscarriage.  You might also remember he’s the fellow who cavalierly diagnosed “the worst case of adenomyosis” he’d ever [...]

It occurs to me that it’s probably not particularly healthy for me to get so much of my information from the internets, but, you know?  It’s just so tempting to google “DHEA mood” and see what pops up.  Apparently the giddy good mood I’ve been enjoying for the last two months, (er, ever since I [...]

…and there are more of them than I was expecting. Looks like I’ll be doing Lupron 2x a day + 8 vials of Bravelle/day + 3 vials of Menapur/day + twice as much PIO, + Lovenox.  Not to mention the orals & the pessaries.   Damn.  I’m getting nervous about the track marks already.  Did [...]

…which is rather a new feeling for me.  Don’t know if it’s a result of the peace that comes with formalizing my long-term relationship; or if it’s from the general feeling of well-being that all these artificial hormones floating around in my body is inducing; or if it’s simply the joy of having a good [...]

Argh. Have I mentioned before how no matter how much I like my doctor, his receptionists aren’t the best or the brightest?  Received a phone message yesterday that my appointment today was getting pushed back because of all the transfers/retrievals, so could we reschedule?  Ok, that’s understandable; even I wouldn’t claim that my consultation appointment [...]