…slowly but surely. My HCG levels are dropping faster than I’d feared they would. 124, down from 1800 a week ago. Thank any-deity-who’s-listening. And, I’m feeling correspondingly better. Which is more of a relief than I can say. I don’t know if it’s the psychological release of everything being really & truly OVER, or if [...]

So I went to work, and it wasn’t that bad, though I did find out that my extraordinarily sympathetic boss is moving back to Korea where she can be a housewife & concentrate on getting pregnant/staying pregnant. I will miss her. And envy her. But that wasn’t the most fun. The most fun was realizing [...]

Whew. I feel better. Better physically and even better emotionally than I have, really since we found out that I was going to lose the baby. The bleeding’s already tapering off, and I had a couple of cramps yesterday, but nothing that a couple of tylenol couldn’t deal with. I had hot & sour soup [...]

It looks like I will not, after all, be a candidate for a D&C today. Uncooperative body finally comes through on something I’m asking of it. Of course if I’d had any notion what yesterday would be like, I’d’ve signed up for the surgery the day after I found out what was going on, just [...]

So I keep having flashes of inappropriate black humor and it’s sort of starting to wig me out. I mean if my closest friend tried to turn what I’m going through into an opportunity for a giggle, I’d probably never speak to her again. This attitude must be apparent, since the boy – who, though [...]

…slightly more than yesterday, but the cramping is way more intense. Wow. Let me say that I don’t have a lot of basis for comparison, being one of those women who suffers only a teeny tiny bit each month. Translation: Once a month, I have one cramp, just enough of a twinge to let me [...]

Still spotting, though now it’s accompanied by some pretty regular cramping. Looks like this is it, so I was able to cancel my D&C appointment for mid-week. I did take the day off work, but so far I could probably have sat my butt in the chair & answered questions. Maybe not, though. God, I [...]

Hmmmph. I spotted a little bit of blood this morning, but haven’t seen anything since. Intestinally upset, though, which would be par for the course if I were about to start a normal period. Hah. So I’m hopeful (hopeful? Now there’s an inappropriate word in this context) that this might ‘resolve’ or ‘complete’ or whatever [...]